A Partial Explanation

I want all my posts and thoughts to be positive, uplifting, words of hope and encouragement. However, at the current time I am fighting to experience these things myself. Having done all, I am standing (Eph 6:13). I just read a "Special Bulletin" by Rick Joyner that partially explains what I have been experiencing:

"Right now many see the church as being in terrible shape, in pain, writhing, and disoriented. This is pretty accurate, but why is she in that shape? It is because she is giving birth. In the stages of the birth process, she would be in "transition." In this stage, a mother is usually overly sensitive, overreacting, in confusion, and wanting to quit! This is what many Christians have likewise been feeling, but all of this will soon be over. When this stage is over, a great clarity and resolve comes upon the mother to give birth to her child, and that is coming upon the church very soon."

"The church is struggling to give birth to the last-day ministry, the ministry that will close out the church age and prepare the way for the return of the Lord and His kingdom. Change is coming. How?"

"During the "transition" stage of childbirth, the mother must fight her natural tendencies to push. To push at that time would actually be counterproductive to the birth process and would only make it more difficult and more painful. As hard as it is during times of such confusion, the best thing the mother can do is just try to rest and relax. As soon as this stage is over and the clarity comes, then it is time to push. We are about to see a major thrust forward in the very near future. A dramatic change in the resolve of the church is coming."

I've been getting words about learning to rest, and pressing into contemplative prayer more. Even this last Sunday, Billy picked up on something in the spirit and did an altar call during prophetic worship, which doesn't happen too often. He felt that many are worn out and needed to come into the rest of God. He quoted and prayed Matt 11:28-30:
"Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Then, I received an email for prayer from Heidi Baker which included what the Lord had spoken to her regarding rest, from Heb. 4:9-16. (This email was also sent out as a Special Bulletin).

So that explains what is going on, partially.

Lord, help me to find Your rest.