A Bittersweet Season

I'm going to save all the pretenses I was going to begin this blog with and just start by saying that the last few days have been rather painful for me. With a dab of humor I might call it the "Combo Platter of Pain." I know that the Lord has me in a current season of being drawn away with Him, but in the midst of it He is revealing things externally that are revealing things internally. Things are happening in the natural that I have completely no control over, but cause me to grope for God because of the pain that I am experiencing due to deep wounds that have never healed.

A few months ago, I called my pastor in relation to a particular issue, and he began to give me a prophetic word based on a dream the Lord had given him regarding me (unrelated to what I had called about). He wouldn't tell me the dream, but what he did say was this:

"Liz, the Lord is going to do an even deeper work in you regarding rejection. Oh, and regarding your future husband, don't settle for second best."

At the time, I was like "what in the world? Why and how do these two statements fit together?" I am beginning to realize in a major way that they are inexplicably linked. I really believe that the Lord is doing something in me related to both those issues right now, though neither one are resolved. What I will say is that what I am experiencing right now is one of the most painful things I've ever experienced. It is funny though, the Lord is bringing joy amidst the pain and showing me how to praise Him and find Him in the middle of the storm raging in my heart. He is literally teaching me how to find solace in Him alone and that He is really all I need. So it is a Combo Platter of Pain with bittersweet chocolate chip cookies.