On Healing...

Lately I've been chewing on the painful fact that I am not operating in the power that was promised to me in the word, specifically in Mark 16:

"And these signs will follow those who believe: in My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick and they will recover." --Mark 16:17-18

I've become extremely frustrated that when I lay hands on the sick, they are not recovering (I did have that sweet kiss from heaven in Brazil when a lady's back got healed that I prayed for, but that has been it). I have been reading God's Generals slowly over the last few months. I read it mainly at night, because I love to read stories before I go to bed. It has really been messing me up. I read about these men and women and I ask "why not me, God?" I want to see healings like John G. Lake. I want to raise the dead like Smith Wigglesworth. I want to move crowds in the power of the Holy Ghost like Aimee Semple McPherson.

I am not giving up, but I am getting desperate. Then last week I picked up The Hidden Power of Prayer and Fasting by Mahesh Chavda again to help me during GBF. Interestingly enough, tonight I read the following:
"It is time for us to take back the territory the enemy has stolen from God's people. God wants us to dwell heart-to-heart with Him in intimate relationship and obedience to His will--exactly as Jesus prayed on the day He surrendered Himself to His accusers (see Jn. 17). When we reclaim our inheritance as the sons and daughters of God and begin to seek His face in prayer and fasting, all the miracles of the Gospels and the Book of Acts will come roaring back into the everyday existence of the Church! It is as simple as that."

It is as simple as prayer and fasting. I am doing prayer and fasting. I am not sure what I am missing, but I am hanging on, even if it is by a thread.