I am in the middle of some kind of transition and I can't really put my finger on it. God has His finger on some stuff, however, and that makes for some interesting days. Today I had Egroup at 7am, which is exciting, but a challenging hour for me to be there (I'm up late from being on the Evening Section schedule). I always enjoy egroup, as it is a time to connect in community with my IHOP friends, discuss some challenging passages, and have the opportunity to ask questions.

Toward the end of egroup, I got hit with the reality of my heart on a few unnamed issues, which sent me into high introspection stage. I'm not sure I have anything settled, except after repenting and accepting the Lord's forgiveness, I know it is crucial that I dive into His word for reaffirmation. What was especially stinky about the whole thing is that during it all, the Accuser came in with some nasty accusations. You'd think that I would begin to recognize a pattern by now, but I am only beginning to see what is really truth and untruth about who I am and what the Lord says about me. At the end of the 4pm Intercession set, I asked for prayer, because by then He revealed to me that it was oppression that was coming against me (the number one sign should have been that I did not want to pray). I immediately felt a release, especially after this one woman prayed for me, exactly what I had whispered silently to the Lord.

Later tonight we had a meeting for the children's ministry here at the HOP. It was amazing to be a part of a team who is so whole-heartedly willing to give their time and effort to pour into the next generation. We had a great time of sharing, preparation, and prayer. Oh, to be entrusted with teaching the young ones!