Tonight was the first night of our Passionate Pursuit Conference. Allan Hood and Corey Russell are in town from IHOP-KC to preach along with our very own Billy Humphrey. Tonight Allan preached. At first, I thought he'd never get to it, because he started talking about God raising up a House of Prayer in Atlanta and a bunch of us staffers are on the edge of our seats, about to go into travail. Literally. I have tears streaming down my face (not hard to believe), and this groan is about to start coming out, but I fight it back a bit, because I know that he is probably going to end soon and go ahead and preach. So, he ends the first little portion with a prayer and a good many of us get rocked from the get-go. Then he starts in on his real message. It was about having an eternal mindset based on the teachings of Christ in Matt. 16 and John 12, unto empowering us to die in this age. Yeah. God's been talking to me a lot about this topic lately, more from the raw edge of just dying to self and enabling Christ to live in and through me, so the message really struck a home run for me. It was as if God was speaking directly to me, "See, Liz, I really DO want you to die."

UGH. It sounds so morbid if you don't have a revelation of why one must die. But, that is what we are asking for - revelation. I did Randy's little quiz once that supposedly determined what preacher you are most like and I couldn't even finish the quiz because half of the questions I either didn't understand or hadn't given any thought to them. One of the questions was something like, "Do you favor experience with or revelation of God?" and I was all about experience. However, I am beginning to understand that in order to fully experience God, one must have a revelation of Him. So, with all that said, revelation is moving up real high in my books. If we have a true revelation who God created us to be and of eternity we will live our lives completely different. Even though I have chosen to be in the House of Prayer serving God at the moment, that doesn't mean that I have a true grip on the eternal benefits. I NEED A DEEPER REVELATION OF MY ETERNAL CALLING. There is still too much of me in me. God, you must increase and I must decrease! This has been my prayer for a little over a year now, and He continues to ruin me afresh with it almost daily. Thank you, Jesus. Give me grace to die.