So recently a lot of people have been asking me what my "dream" is. This is a really hard question to answer, especially because I've had a lot of them over the years. Some have been dropped and some have been held onto. I think I always thought I had too many and it was really hard to pursue any one of them wholeheartedly, until now. I remember when I was just a newborn (Christian) and I remember when I was sitting in my room, just hanging out with God, reading His word, but I had homework hanging over my head. I couldn't spend too much time with God because I had to get my homework done. I remember crying out to God, why did I have to be in school?! Why couldn't I just hang out with Him all day?! I'm sure some of you out there had similar thoughts at one time...

Well, now that I am in the House of Prayer, I get to hang out with God all day. Yeah, I do have other tasks to accomplish at times, but I have a lot of freedom to spend hours on end with Him. It is exciting, and yet, for one of the first times in my life I haven't had the overwhelming urge to want to look ahead into the future. I haven't wanted to dwell on some "dream" far off in the future, even if it is only a few months away. I can honestly say, that I am content with right where I am. I am at peace. Everything is okay and will work out. I'm finally not worried about where I'll be in 5 years. I can hear some of you thinking, "she should still set some goals or something." I say goal are good, but I finally feel rather free of a driving ambition to get me somewhere. So lately when people have asked me what are my dreams, I have hesitated. Not because I don't have any, but because I would be totally content for years (as long as things get fiery every now and then) to sit in the House of Prayer and contend for friends, family, unknown people, and the nation(s).

Maybe one day I will be posting an "I Have a Dream" speech on my blog, but not today.